I am tired of trying. At this point I don’t care anymore. I miss everyone. I feel so isolated in California. Honestly I haven’t been up to anything. My life has been a dull rather depressing thing this summer… its just school then work then school again. I haven’t even bothered trying to be social lately… haven’t even skyped. Instead any little down time I have I spend lost in a book or sleeping.

I feel like I’m in exile during summertime. I miss being up at school, surrounded by my friends and completely buried in schoolwork.

I’m not happy. I don’t remember being truly happy. All I want is someone to hold me when I go to sleep at night.

And oh ya someone to prepare my apples because I’m sick of eating them whole just to avoid a tool.