i havent written here since like march..but i still have injured. life has been so crazy. i kissed a guy for the first time, and that is supposed to be special but it was with some guy i just met and it was just a one time hookup..it was hard getting over it and dealing with it. so i injured. in may, my birthday monthh, i learned that MY best friend’s other friend’s birthday was 2 days after mine. so they were all busy doing stuff for her birthday and they forgot about me..i dont remember when but injured. i was so freaked out and crying..that was the last time i injured cuz i have been so scared. but today i was hanging out with my best friend and the other girl whose birthday is 2 days after mine. and i was feeling left out. and later we met up with other guys and i felt even more left out. no one was really talking to me. my supposed best friend didnt do anything..now i feel like injuring. not only for that but because i have been sexually harassed and stalked a lot lately and it is so annoying. creepy and scary. ive been injuring for over a year. been going to a phsyciatrist for over a year. and been taking anti depressants since january. and i am still depressed.
You can get through this. Sometimes, I feel like just talking helps. Being honest with your therapist and yourself is the most important thing you have right now. Are those people REALLY your friends? I don’t think so. You need to look out for people who support you. Sometimes, yeah, your first kiss will be a dud, I know mine was. But that shouldn’t stop you, because there are going to be great people out there who really do love you, and people who will support you fully. You always have us and you always have your family, even when times with them are tough. Keep hanging in there, and don’t stop blogging!
<3, rescue
thanks :] i needed that