Hi I’m new at this blogging thing have not tried it in the past.  But I’m feeling very alone and just want to scream at someone that I want to injure. I hope that it’s ok that I said that I don’t want to bother anyone with what I write.  I’m having a lot of difficulty dealing with life right now.  I have 49 days clean from drugs and alcohol and I have not injured in 30 days.  I struggle more with the SI then I do with the drinking/using.  I just feel very alone these days, don’t have many people to talk with.  I have a new job and I worry that people will see my scars and start asking questions.  I’m a social worker and I have difficulty handling the fact that I injure myself.  I wonder some days how I’m going to be able to help others when I can’t seem to help myself.