I have had problems since October-ish, and been SI’ing on and off since December. My mother made me go to a doctor and talk about it about a month ago, because she knew something was wrong. I’ve been taking depression medicine since, and it worked a little bit until the dosage was upped, and now I’m back to the way I was, having SI thoughts more  and more often.

My SI thoughts going away for about a month was so nice but now I’m scared more than ever before. I’ve never told my parents and doctor about my SI’ing and SI thoughts; about wanting to hurt myself to the point where I scare myself. I need to find a way to get through this, because right now I feel like I’m falling apart.