Things have been so hectic lately that I have had trouble just staying present in reality.
First, the good. I know that I am probably quite a bit older then some of you, (25) but I found out last week that I got accepted into graduate school!! 🙂 I can’t believe it, I have worked my butt off to get to where I am, but it I still have that train of thought that I am worthless and no good.
The bad: I live about 300 miles from any family members, and I have to go for a visit on Thursday. I am not really looking forward to the drive, I like driving, it just gets boreing driving alone. I am not sure what to expect, I know I get to visit with a few friends while I am there, but I still don’t like going because I don’t really get along well with my mother or my sister. (My dad is like my best friend, but he rarely spends time with me because he is always busy.)
The Ugly: I had another episode the other night that required medical attention. How I continue to avoid getting put in the psych ward is a mystery to me, but for whatever reason, I do. I feel bad about it. But two of the ERs and one of the walk-in clinics knows me by name and face.
Anyways, I just needed to get this all off my chest.