for the past three days all i’ve wanted to do was hurt myself. everything sets me off. i can’t go an hour without feeling that familiar sickening feeling in my stomache. i don’t know how to deal with this pain and if i want to deal with it anymore. i feel like i’m slowly losing my sanity and i’m afraid i won’t be able to get it back. i know people keep telling me to talk to someone, but ican’t bring myself to do it.
i’m so lost and confused. and all i want to do is cry
I’m so sorry you’re having a hard time.
Life is sometimes hard, and I know how that works, but you need to find the strength in yourself to get through. Even in the back of your head, you know that SI’ing is wrong, and won’t help anything.
All of us on this site have dealt with this at some point, and it’s proof you CAN get through. If it has gotten to that point though, have you considered getting help? It’s not easy, but talking to a doctor or therapist may help get rid of some of those thoughts.
Good luck! Hope you start feeling better soon.
If you can cry, cry! I haven’t been able to cry in so long. Crying is very theraputic.
At some point you may want to talk to someone, however if you are not there right now, can you journal?
You can email me any time you want myownfriend@cox.net
I can almost feel your pain through your words. I completely understand your pain. Today is the first time I have ever blogged or looked for a group for SI’ing. I am hoping others will help me to understand I’m not the only one out there with these feelings, and from what I’ve read so far; I now know I am not alone.
Believe me, I know how hard it is to talk to a therapist or psychiatrist…to me it was just too painful, but keeping it all in was even more painful. Getting it all out there and pouring your heart out is most definitely hard, but DOES help. I use to HATE going, bringing up my past and present was so hard to talk about and I’d had rather just keep it all bottled up inside…but that sure didn’t do me any good. So, just figured I felt horrible letting it bubble up inside me so what could it hurt to spill it all out.
I’m no professional, but you sound so at the end of your rope. Please find the strength in you to see someone professionally that can spend some time with you and maybe even get you on some anti-depressants that will help you.
Contact me if you want to talk. You can email me at njmitch101@yahoo.com.
Take care sweetie and know that I am thinking and praying for you. Please hange in there.