Well, what most people don’t get is that it becomes a part of you almost like away of life. You just can’t stop cold turkey. Because your still going to have the urges to do it. It is to me like breathing I always have to do it. See it takes away small amounts of pain at a time ’cause if we just let it sit there and get bilt up then we would eventually do more ….. drastic things like suicide. Which ends it all. I’ve all way thought about it but people say its not worth it ,and they know how i feel. But they don’t I’m not them and there not me. So ……. I guess no one will ever know how the othere person feels if we just keep it in the dark.