i’ve been so good for the longest time, my si has been to a minimum. the distractions were working, but not anymore.
and then i found out my supposed “best friends” have been doing stuff and diliberately leaving me out
and i’ve pretty much figured out that i don’t fit in anywhere.
so i just si’d again for the first real time since school let out. it was so good to be able to not worry about my scars showing, and now thats gone.
i just don’t know how to deal anymore.
i’ve been thinking a lot lately about killing myself, and i wish this would all stop.
i wish id stop being in pain every waking moment of everyday
the emotional pain i feel has been making me physically sick, and its starting to show, people are starting to notice.
theres like no one i can talk to anymore, cause everyone else has their own stuff to deal with,, i don’t want to burden them with mine.
i came so close to telling my campus minister, to asking her for help but i chickened out about three times.
i want this to end and to have more control over myself but i’m afraid that im slowly losing what little control i have. had.
if u need someone to talk to email me, I feel the same way: xxfakedsmilesxx@yahoo.com
Please talk to your campus minister. I used to think I wanted to die but I really just wanted the pain to stop. Our purpose is not to live in agony but to be children of light. Your life is so important to the world, don’t cheat us out of knowing your gifts and spirit.
God bless
I’m here for you as well. I can honestly say that I can relate but as you know, every case is different. I have managed to stop hurting myself for over a week now. If you need someone to talk to, I’m totally here. You can friend me on Facebook if you want and we can talk more. My name is Devon Vance and I live in Slidell, Louisiana. I hope I hear from you. In the mean time, work on thinking about atleast five things that the SAFE program calls your 5 Alternatives. I have the Self-Harm book and I have been keeping an impulse log for about three days, and it has helped tremendously. I hope to hear from you. Hang in there; it’s okay that you did it, just try to resist as much as you can. Even five or ten minutes will help. Gradually, you’ll progress to an hour, then half a day, then a week. Just take it one step at a time and worry about yourself. Take care. 🙂
suicide is a permant solution to a temperary problem. i just got out of the hospital for suicide attempt. nothing is worth it. i promise. don’t feel like you are burdening other people with your problems. most likely, people want you to talk to them because they want to feel like their not alone.
you can email me anytime to talk..kelsopeggy@yahoo.com
Try to talk to your campus minister. Try to talk to anyone. I know that it’s very hard but please continue to try. I know how hard it is when you feel like giving up. I still feel like that. I know what it feels like to carry the burden of SIing, it’s hard.
I’m here if you ever want to talk:
unlived3life@yahoo.com