Thursday I was struck but an overwhelming sense of grief and a violent urge to destroy something. Everything was going fine until my boyfriend and I got into an argument and I just fell apart. I don’t think it was the argument that triggered this stream of emotions but I don’t know what else it could have been. I broke down, crying uncontrollably and couldn’t get certain images form my past out of my head. Flashbacks. I was getting so frustrated with myself that I had the urge to lash out at something… I could actually feel that something was terribly wrong. That I wasn’t myself. My boyfriend tried to calm me down, tried to talk to me, but I couldn’t tell him what was wrong. I didn’t know how to explain to him what was going through my mind. I ended up SIing while he was in the bathroom. Luckily, he walked in on me before I could harm myself anymore. Ever since I haven’t been able to control it. I don’t know what to do. I need help but I don’t know how to ask because I don’t know exactly what’s wrong with me. I feel like maybe its time for me to see a therapist but I don’t know how to tell my mom or anyone else for that matter. Does anyone have any suggestions????