Thursday night, I got in massive trouble for “lying” to my mom and sneeking an extra soda (this is how messed up my life is). So technically I’m grounded from the computer, but whatever. I was fine after, and resisted the temptation to SI. Well later that night my mom asked me to help her clean the basement. Well she got all mad at me because I kept saying “that’s not my fault” even though like a couple things were, but I didn’t want to get in more trouble. So she starts yelling at me, calling me this irresponsible kid, and telling me how I’m never going to have a future, and I’m going to basically fail everything I do. So I get pissed, and go up stairs. I take a shower and I SI. This is fine, whatever. But I end up doing more than I thought I would. It has never been like this before, and I don’t know what to do. It was HORRIBLE. Help…?
ok, i totaly know what you mean. my parents have given me the “if you dont do better in school…” lecture MANY times, and i usually end up really pissed off and SI-ing. i have also ended up doing more then i thought i would and it can be really confusing and scary. im not exactly sure what you should do, and when you SI more then you mean to you usually end up feeling horrible. i dont know if this helped any but yeah. hope things get better for you. <3
I have been there so many times, ive lost count! I mean i just realized i actually hate my dad, and it terrifies me! I lately have also been injuring alot more than usual and i feel totally guilty and depressed. I kno what helps me is to lie down and write down what is wrong and just write it out and look it over and look for a solution. Now sometimes i cant find a reason and i just want to injure, at which point i have no idea at all what to do… I hope this helps u. ?nikki