Ok so on the way to drop off a friend, my mom said something that contradicted what she had said on the subject earlier completely. Confused, I called her out on it, only to have her start yelling at me in front of my friend for nothing, again. She always does it, but its getting really hard to just ignore it, and it made me realize something that scares me a lot. I really hate my mom. Not just ‘Im mad at her.’ Even when were not fighting, i still cant stand to be around her. I guess thats just the result of 15 years of her taking out all her problems on me, but i feel bad. Now I really want to SI, and im trying not to, but I know ill end up doing it anyways… i dunno, Im just really depressed recently, guess we all seem to be.
You’re not taking out anything on your mom, she’s doing it to you, and she shouldn’t be, because it’s not fair. But don’t take it out on yourself if she’s having a bad day, because no matter what she tells you, it’s not your fault. You can do this, you can be better. You have to want this for yourself. You can do it.
I can relate, I can not stand my mother, we don’t get along at all. If its not one thing, its another, no matter how hard I try to get along with her but she pushes every button of mine. If you need to talk you can email me myownfriend@cox.net
I recently figured out that I hate my mom to. I just… Everything about her just really annoys me. She refuses to stand up for herself, and she takes stuff out on me ALL the time. But yells at me when I do it to her. I hate it. You have to find a way though to not consentrate on self-injuring. Call a friend, and just talk to them about anything other than hurting yourself. Or play an online game. Something to distract you. It helps me a lot. And maybe it will work for you.
Thanks a ton you guys, it helps to know other people feel he same way. I actually managed to not SI lsat night by just busying myself with other meaningless stuff untill i was too tierd to concentrate on anything other than getting rest. Im kind of tierd, but i didnt Si, so that was a pluss. Again, thanks so much, yall are awsome.