I recently was hospitalized for 8 days. Worst experience of my life. Most of the councilers lectured, one made fun of me for injuring, it was like prison, and they took everything away. All of my inpatient buds were cool, but still, it sucked. But there was one counciler… He said I was like an ostrich when it came to dealing with stuff. You see ostriches stick their heads in the sand when there hear trucks comming in Australia. They keep there heads in the ground untill they realize “Oh hey, it’s not going away I have to do something” They bring their heads up and BAMM!!! Their hit by a semi. And I realized I can’t just escape, I have to face it… The venrebility. Which sucks… But it’s written all over my face. And I also realized… Life is like a puzzle, and right now we only have one puzzle peice… We can’t just be like “Awww! I hate this puzzle it’s going to be nothing. It sucks.” We only have one peice… The next one wont be so blue. Just wait. I promise it’ll change.
One bad thing, I continue to dream of SIing. :/ And I did yesterday… Sigh. It’s just a part of me ya know?
This has given me like the greatest hope in the world. I’ve realized through it that my recovery is most important, and that it’s not all about me, but the people I’ve affected as well, and that when it gets tough, I can’t get up. Because if we give up we get worse. Thank you so much for writing this. I might have to print it and hang it up. Wow.
<3, rescue
I’m glad this reached your heart. If only one person thats good enough for me. We really cant tell if life sucks. We haven’t lived it. Also I’ve found life is like one of those books, it kinda sucks in the begining, but then you realize, “Hey I want to see how this ends.” Ya know?
It’s all about dancing/singing along with the music that’s already playing.
Exactly, living with what you’ve got and taking it in. We can’t forget the past, we can’t foretell the future. Today is what matters, and today, I will live, today I will not SI. Tomorrow isn’t important, and yesterday is behind me. And that’s all there is…right now, this very second, all that matters is that I’m okay today.