First off, sorry I haven’t been on the blog as much!! I’ve found myself so busy and kept pushing off posting, so, I decided to do it tonight.  Things have FINALLY been in my favor, and life has been pretty darn good.  Today my shrink took me off my anti-depressants; it’s just a great feeling, like I’m one step closer.  I’ve still stayed true to my word, I haven’t SI’d since mid-June, and quite frankly, I haven’t even had any urges.

One thing that made me EXTREMELY irritated today though was when I was talking to my shrink about my friend who just SI’d for the first time in a year.  We both support each other, and I remember she really helped me, probably just because we understand each other.  But my shrink was like, ‘make sure that you two don’t end up giving each other ‘tips” on ways to SI and make each other more depressed”.  I seriously wanted to punch her in the face, I was SO INFURIATED that she would even SUGGEST that!! that b^(#@! She doesn’t know crap about anything!  I don’t even care if she was trying to “help”.  Even though I’m a lot better, I’m still extremely touchy about certain phrases like.  People can be so inconsiderate sometimes…

Last Monday (29 June) though was pretty terrible.  I witnessed my best friend whom I have known literally since I was born being hit by a pick-up truck.  I felt so helpless, I saw the truck coming, and I knew what was going to happen, but it was one of those situations where you couldn’t do anything to help it from happening.  She is extremely lucky, all things considered, only a broken toe, but the rest of her toes were hurt too (that’s all I’m probably allowed to say b/c of moderation…)  I just can’t get that scene out of my head, it’s like it keeps replaying over and over again.  However, I’ve been seeing her, and she’s recovering well at least 🙂   I hope everyone is doing well.  Have faith and stay strong!