I have been struggling with SI in one form or another for most of my life. I have a hard time puting things in the right wording, but most of the time when I hurt myself and end up in the ER I don’t have any knoweldge of it. Although I see my psychologist twice a week, I continue to have the dissociative episodes. I wanted to know if anyone else SIs without any memory of it before or right after?
I have so much dissocia it’s like rediculous. Right now, as per most of the time, I sit in my room and just blog. And write. And sing. And escape. I hate the world around me, and I feel like no one is around to be there for me anymore. I guess I’m just sick of the people who are sick of me too. And it hurts, all of this hurts so bad.
I can relate to that also. I live alone (with my 2 dogs and a cat) and I am so tired of people that I isolate, there are times I don’t leave my house for any reason. I am emotionally numb to most situations.
Same here, really. And the people who get frustrated don’t help me.