I am tired of pretending everything is okay. I am tired of the looks I get from friends. The look seems to analyze my every movement and facial expression. I am tired of friends asking the same questions. I know they mean well but if the next one that brings up this ‘illness’ of mine is going to make my head explode. I am sick and tired of the pointed “how are you today” with the same intonation. I’m being judged and I hate it. I absolutely abhor it. I handle things better when I’m left alone but it doesn’t look like that is going to happen anytime soon. I am tired of all of it. I want to be left alone. Alone is what I deserve.