Okay, I’m so screwed up! I SI’d a few mins ago. I’m home alone so I figured I’d update a website I design for a non-profit group and e-mail people that need to be e-mailed…I did, but I sent the e-mail to a big group of people and didn’t BBC (blind carbon copy) it so I wouldn’t share the addresses with everyone…I’m so stupid! Now I’m probably gonna have tons of people e-mailing me back griping…so I SI’d.
I have my first appt with a new T on Thursday, but it’s going to get worse from now until then, I just know it is. He sounds okay, but now I’m regretting calling him. I don’t wanna tell him about this. I told him I was having thoughts of SI, but now what do I say? “Sorry doc, it’s too late for me, and I don’t want to talk about it?” ugh!
I mean, I’m such a hipocrit, I just replied to someone’s post and I sounded so optimistic and gave advice. I shouldn’t be giving advice. I’m so screwed up!