I HATE myself tonight and I injured. I’m not having a very easy time with life right now. The only feeling I can come up with tonight is just pure hatred for myself and this god-awful world that I feel trapped in.
Anyone have some words of encouragment tonight? When you’re sick — it’s hard to come with any “rational” thinking. I need help with that tonnight.
If you have another night like this don’t hesitate to email. Bbfoshiz@gmail.com
i know how feel i have relapsed badly last nite but reasd wat i post okay it might help u and I am always here to tlk..we make mistakes okay but we also have chances so believe in ur self and know u might have fall this time but u can always pick urself up again,.
I don’t feel like I made a mistake.. I feel I AM a mistake.
The reason why I turned to this website was because I lost my job 3 months ago. I have less than $13.00 to my name right now. I don’t have insurance or the money to get my medications or see my therapist, get groceries, buy gas or pay utilities or rent this month. I SI last night because I don’t know how else to deal with these strong emotions I am having. I feel like such a failure in life. Everything has been topsy-turvy for a few years, but worse since my life drastically and unexpectantly changed 3 months ago. My already dibiliating depression has really taken a huge nose dive. I feel I’ve run out of options. I know SI only adds to my problems. It certainly doesn’t resolve things, but I feel the emotions just sort of take over and I can’t help myself. I wish I had better coping skills, but I have failed at learning that too.
“I am capable, I am lovable.
I am beautiful, I am worthwhile,
I accept both my strengths and weaknesses, for they are me.
I will no longer believe the lie that if I make a mistake, I am a mistake.
I will use my mistakes as the tools on my journey to recovery.”
that’s a self mutilator’s anonymous prayer. I say it all the time. Just because we make mistakes and we have flaws, doesn’t make us any less human. We are all loved. I’ve relapsed a good ten times in the past year…not pretty. But I’ve forgiven myself for it, and realized that making mistakes is a part of being a person, and it’s part of getting better. I can get better, I will get better. We just have to take this one day at a time.