okay.i do wanna change.i dont want to SI forever.Im only fourteen and ive already hurt myself too much and i dont know what else.ive hurt Quite Alot Of People.i only wanna change.ive been to rehab three times(!) in the past two years.christina and miranda have been my only source of hope but sometimes i feel like they cant help.they say they understand but idk.i cant go two weeks without SI.It makes me feel like all of this is a dream.A horrible terrible dream,,err nightmare.