Wow. well, i’ve sat here and stared at this web site for at least an hour and a half. Sheer luck (or coincedence) that i found this site. And after deliberate thinking, and alot of reluctance, i’ve managed to click on the “register” button and sign up for this… What now?
I’m at a loss for words. Me? the girl who can sit and write for hours and never run out of things to say, is for once… speechless.. Guess i’m scared.
Not scared about what people would think of me. More like i’m scared what these blogs will reveal about myself. what i will see, hidden in between the lines of these words. i put so much of myself, of my voice, amnd of my heart into words like this. And i guess i’m also scared that this website might not be able to help me anyways. i can only hope and pray that it gets my mind off… other things.
I mean, sure, sometimes i harm myself, but does that really make me.. dysfunctional and abnormal? Does that mean i’m considered an unfit and unproductive member of society? what exactly does that mean?
I’ve tried to stop. And i succeeded, for about 7 months. But just like an other addiction, it keeps coming back. And it seems the more i try to push it away, the harder it works to wiggle itself back into my life, seemingly unnoticed but reluctant to leave.
Waht’s wrong with me? I know i’m not alone with this. i’ve read the facts. i’ve seen the statistics, i recognize and understand the fact that many, many people suffer from these feeelings (hence this website)… so why do i still feel, utterly, hopelessly, and pwerlessly alone? Vulnerable and weak. Moribund and scared?
Any answers?
all you can do is try… dont give up hope, there are so many of us that feel the same way you do and struggle the same way you do. this site does help, it keeps you talking to people and keeps you from isolating yourself which is key. we can all support eachother : )
7 months is longer than I’ve gone, and I’m proud of you for several reasons. Making it that far, and for finding us and having the courage to speak to us. The point here is to reveal things about yourself in order to let us all understand and help you. Believe me, you’ve come to the right place…you are not at all alone here. We’ve all struggled, and we’re all trying to overcome an addiction. If there’s one thing I’ve learned on here, it’s that these people, us, a community of self injurers, I think our main goal is to help eachother and help ourselves. For me, helping you, helping everyone else around here get through their day, it keeps me sober. So really, you’re helping me back just as much. Not so much speaking for myself, but for the whole group of us, welcome. You’re not alone, and you’re loved. We’re here to help you, and we all understand, always will. You’re in the right place, and I’m glad you’re here.
<3, rescue
Thanks you guys. That means an awful lot to me. I sear, tears are springing from my eyes 🙂 Good tears though, trust me.
I’m trying really hard. I came upon this website because it had a link off of that “To Write Love On Her Arms” website. I’m really glad now that i’ve decided to write about myself and my…. problem, i guess.
Anyways. I am very hopeful that someone will be able to help me, and i am aslo willing to help others. We’re not alone.
Thanks again.