I hant injured lately. im proud of mysefl. but at the sam time its in my head all the time.its in my brain evry day throught out the day. its constant. i always hav that lingering in my head. even if nothing is wrong. unjuring is like an addiction and no one seems to understand that. its always going to b a part of who i am. i have scars to remind me everyday. i dont know whats rong with me. why cant i jus get the injuring and pain and rlif fling out of my mind??
No, i understand exactly what you mean. Every time I tried to quit (i cant even count the number of times ive tried to) it was always in my head, so it almost was AS IF i may as well be SIing. But it wasn’t, that’s the thing. Things get better, I promise. Unfortunately, we may always have the urge to SI. It’s just something we have to deal with, but we have to deal with it in a GOOD way. You should be proud of yourself!! I know it doesnt seem like a victory, but it is. There is nothing wrong with you. You’re just going through some tough times. But it sounds like you know that you need to quit. just NEVER LOSE THAT DETERMINATION. That is your strongest weapon at this point. Stay strong, and have faith in God.