Lately all i want to do is SI. Sometimes it’s all i can think about. No matter how the day went if there was one small thing that went bad i want to do it.  I thought i was getting better but lately its been more and more difficult to keep up with not doing anything. This is honestly my first time blogging about this issue for me and i really don’t know what to say all i know is i need help and i feel like for once someone is listening to me…