im chillin with friends right now.. but im really not in the mood too, even though im trying to enjoy my time with them. i cant stop thinking about hurting myself. i feel nothing but alone, i feel like no one truley cares. they act like they do and act like they wanna help and care for me.. but they dont.. no one could care for me, im pathetic. ;/ what should i do.. i really wanna self injure but i know i shouldnt… and then if i dont.. ill feel bad for not doing what i think i deserve. ahh helppp. :/