I dont know if i can ever stop. I know i want to.. i mean its not right to feel like this but i do. Im a dancer and scares are impossible to hide. I also switched schools a while back and lost most of my friends, the people who where holding me together. Now no one knows i SI here and im to scared to tell them, or anyone. I feel like im doing everything wrong and im worthless. How could anyone ever want me like this. I think about running away all the time. I want to hide. My mum isnt supportive of me now so how could i ever tell her(my father is gone). I just want someone to hold me so tight i dont have to think..think about life , mistakes , or anythin. HELP. When i look at myself in a mirror feel disgusted and other times i dont kno who im lookin at. I’v become some what anorexic and i dont kno how to stop that either. WHAT AM I DOING TO MYSELF. I am such a sad excuse for a person and im wasting the life that i have. what should i do. i havent SI in 8 days but i havent eatin in 3 of them…please help me. i cant hold it together much longer.what should i do??
Big cyber hug! Not the same, I know, but for what it’s worth.
Take a look around at the adults in your life. Make a list, perhaps: teachers, guidance counselor, priest/pastor/spiritual leader, relatives, youth group/Scouting leader….is there anyone on that list you could trust? Is your family doctor someone you could go to? It’s risky, I know, but trust your intuition to help you decide whom you can confide in.
Hang in there. You’ve taken a big step just being here. Now you have to be brave enough to do the next thing and reach out to someone closer who can help you.
firstly remember you are not worhtless, everyone has worth, and no matter who lets you down here on earth, GOD will always want you!! He thinks you are beautiful and talented and you are his creation, try to hold on to that, if you don’t believe that then just remember you are not the only one stuggling out there and we are all here for support and to support, its not the same as face to face, but hopefully it helps some. <3 Hope
Reading your post I felt like I was reading one of my own. I get it, I really do. I’m a dancer as well and its just me and my mom. I’m certainly not one to be taking advice from (I’m only on 2.5 weeks) but the one thing you have to remember is you are NOT alone. Try having as much patience with yourself as humanly possible and please eat something. The pressure with weight on the dance floor is tough, I know, but you passing out in front of your coach/team mates/ other dancers/ friends would be tougher. There are plenty of people on here that are willing to talk and help you, including me. You are not alone : )