I’m trying really hard to get better and stop SIing, but it really isn’t easy. I keep slipping, and it’s quite frustrating, cause I know exactly what I’m supposed to be doing. Using my coping mechanisms, talk to someone, go for a run, play the piano, draw, punching bag, etc. I even put post-it notes up on my mirror to remind me to use those things, but the last time I SId (Sunday), I tore them to pieces. Before, I would just get angry, like anyone does. But now I cope with anger using SI. It’s just a habit now. I have to stop though. Even though it wasn’t as consistent as it used to be, the SI is getting worse.
My parents are in some sort of cloud, thinking that everything is getting a lot better. On sunday, I even went up into the kitchen to the closet to get something to SI with, to make it hard on myself. They were in the room. They didn’t say anything, didn’t even notice.
I want to go back to being that girl that everyone knew. One of my few friends that knows told me she almost feels responsible for this, cause she SId, and she says that she should’ve been able to stop me. I feel so guilty, like I’ve let her down. I don’t know what to do. God, please, help me.
Hey, you’re trying to get better, give that to yourself. Reward yourself for your effort. Trying can be very hard at times. I encourage you to keep trying.BTW God will help anyone who asks for His help. You are headed in the right direction. Keep it up! A
i know exactly how you feel, it sucks when your parents dont seem to notice, and the whole guilt over letting your friends down, i feel that every day, but just keep fighting through this, you are going to make it, we all are. <3 Hope
It’s great that you are trying to get better, and I know it’s difficult to do but keep up the hard work and hopefully it will start to get better over time. An whatever you do, do not feel like you have let your friend down! You should feel like you are helping her because you both know about each other’s struggles and can help each other through it.
Thanks guys for the encouragement. I made it last night! Best wishes to everyone. Stay strong.