so everyone who knows about me, is always telling me to keep fighting and use my coping devices and i know i need to do these things but i find that more and more i am tired of fighting the urges to injure and i dont want to fight anymore sometimes i even convinec myself that they wont care if i just stop using the coping tools altogether. the real problem is im about to be gone for 3 weeks seperate from my entire support system, and the worst part 2 of those weeks i will be with my parents, i dont know how im gonna make it through. Any suggestions?
What parts of your support system can you take with you? Will you have internet access? Cell phone? Can you keep in touch with your friends to some extent? What can you take with you to remind yourself of the people who care about you and want you to succeed?
One particularly difficult vacation with a verbally abusive husband the only thing that kept me going without falling apart or triggering his temper was a one-sentence prayer that I would silently repeat to myself while breathing in and out. I could still concentrate on what was going on around me, but it kept me calmer and more able to cope. If you are not religious, it doesn’t have to be a prayer;it can be any brief affirmation that helps you remember your goal.
Is there some physical object you can take with you? A gift from a friend, or something that has some special meaning for you? It sounds silly…I recently bought myself a small jade holey stone. The story comes from an Irish saint who threw a green stone at some demons to drive them away, so it is like a talisman to keep my personal demons at bay.
Three weeks can be a long time, but it will come to an end. What will you be able to tell your support people when you see them again?