my experiance with SI is fairly recent ive been suffering with it for the last few months, only a few people know about what im doing and my parents are not one of them. I’m getting help but i feel really lost and alone it seems like no one really gets whats going on, i can’t even figure out why I’m doing this. I did reach 9 days today which is the longest I’ve gone since I started, but it definately wasn’t easy i had to fight with myself everyday to keep from doing it while trying to use my new coping skills, which never seem to relieve the pressure I feel…. i really wish i could just end these thoughts and just be me again