she, (my last psychologist) didn’t answer to the e-mail I sent to her…

…I think it is a relief but…in other way I feel angry at her…hurt by her…

I know I am being childish. why is she the person I miss the most? why is she the person that hurt me the most? why is she the only person I could really trust…? she used to make me get angry a lot…but after months instead of angry I would get really really sad after the meeting…I regret a lot that I approached so much to her