I’m done trying to scream to you.
I’m tired of SCREAMING for you to pay one freaking moment of attention to me.
I can’t do this.
You let him assualt me.
You let him TOUCH me.
I will never forget that night.
Thank God I have someone who would never do that to me.

But why would you?

I don’t want to stay awake at night crying over you anymore. I’ve done that since I was 9. I’ll be 17 in two weeks.

I’m tired. What do you want me to do? Do you want me to give up, and leave you? WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO DO?! PLEASE!!! LOOK AT ME!!!!

I’m begging….

[This is merely a vent to someone who used to be a mother to me.]