Alright. Honestly, WHAT IS WRONG.  Just a few minutes ago, I mean, LITERALLY, a few minutes ago, I was exuberant.  Really happy.  All of a sudden, it’s like a blanket of saddness and depression came over me, and I’m extremely down now.  I don’t get it.  I’ve already SI’d today, but I still have freaking urges!!  I thought summer would bring a break for SI, but apparently, God has other plans.  I thought that this was all stress related, but apparently not, since I’m still doing it… It’s habitual now.  Just like brushing my teeth.  I dont do it every night at least, I was for a while, but I’m worried I’ll retrogress even more.  I want some answers here.  I know I can only answer them, but it’s extremely irking that I don’t have them.  I just don’t want this to be my high school story, and have this go on all the way to senior year.  Freshman year already sucked, well, the half of it, but I want to have a good TIME. I only get one shot to be a teenager, but a lot of the time, I feel like an adult.  Like I just skipped my teenage years.  Jennifer (shrink) thinks that this may be part of why I SI, but… I don’t want to blow this chance.  I’m tired of all this crap, I’m so sick of it.  I don’t want to end up in a hospital.