I guess yesterday I wrote the most difficuld thing in my life…

an e-mail saying goodbye to Lara (my last psychologist)…the only person who knew me really wel…

I don’t want to fight anymore…I guess that is why even write or do a thing anymore…lately I just do what people ask me to… chores, go to school, draw requests, sing some song,…

I did my best…I really did…but I only feel loneliness or numbness most of the time….so it is ok to give up, righ?

I just don’t want to struggle anymore…I am tired…

the last thing I wrote in the e-mail was

“I don’t want to approach to anyone again…because one day there will be a goodbye…there is always a goodbye and I prefer everything than that”