So my boyfriend broke up with me on Tuesday, breakng my S.I. free streak of 42 days.  I took the break up rather hard, even now I’m not really eating properly because everytime I reach for food I feel really nautious.  Anyways, my best friend who is now home, 5 hours away from me, found out that I had caved and grew really worried.  Because my now ex boyfriend is now the only person nearby she in turn told him about my S.I. which he didn’t know about.  Now hes a really great guy so naturally he wants to see me and talk to me.  I don’t want to though.  I don’t really want to talk to anyone.  I do need him to know that this S.I. has very little to do with him.  But I don’t know how to justify that statement.  I do it to calm myself down, to stop the crying, because I don’t handle emotion well.  I don’t know if he’ll understand that though…