I just injured myself. Something always triggers me. Very recently I got my first boyfriend, but of course there is always a problem. I can barely see him because he doesn’t drive, and everytime I arrange a time to meet up with him, my sister intervenes and makes it impossible for me to see him. I feel almost as if she is jelous because she is older than me and she hasn’t had a boyfriend. Today, I was supposed to take the train with my sister and go hang out with him, but she refused to go, so I couldn’t go either because my dad doesn’t know about my boyfriend and I’m not allowed to date. But my boyfriend is the first person to truly care about me. He knows I injure myself and he hates it, so I have to hide it from him whenever I see him again. I’m just so tired of everyone around me and their stupid requirements and agendas. It’s like I have to please so many people in different ways all at once. And now I’m just exhausted and I don’t want to go on anymore.
You make your own rules! Always remember that. You can’t let people tell you what to do…and as long as you’re in contact with your boyfriend, you should be okay. Just stay strong. Don’t live by other people’s jurisdictions, atleast not all the time. Some people make rules to protect you, others to control. And you have to know the difference between control and protection. Your family loves you, no matter what they may think or do or say. Always. We’re here for you, just know that much.
<3, rescue