If I could just disappear…
When I am getting used to this environment…when I am getting used to this school they just want to move…
my parents are trying to find someone to keep the cofee shop and move again to the city we used to live in before…
When I was getting used to high school there they moved to here, and now that I am getting used to this high school they want to move again… I know I know people in the other city…but being transferred again!? It is not fair…
now that I was getting well with the class…now that there will be persons missing me…
I hate it!!
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My 6years old sister is sick and her fever doesn’t go down…
What will I do?
I can’t talk to my boyfriend until thursday because he is busy with college… so these days I will be on my own… I’m feeling lonely right now…
My parents are always saying that now I have not reasons to be sad since I will be back to my hometown… but they don’t understand how bad is being transferred from school again… If I say this to them I know they will be angry and find someway to make me feel guilty…
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This is a song by me and my old garage rock band Sorrow day
Today when I woke up The sky told me Something was wrong I looked to my hands And understood It was only more One sorrow day
(Do you wanna disappear?)
No, no, no I can’t stand it anymore
(Do you wanna go?)
No, no, no I just don’t wanna feel Another sorrow day
I looked to the mirror And imagined me Getting through this But I can’t, I can’t I am not that strong To get over, get over
This sorrow day
Today when I woke up The sky told me Something was wrong I looked to my hands And understood It was only more One sorrow day
(Do you wanna disappear?)
No, no, no I want to forget the sorrow (Do you wanna go?)
No, no, no Just end with the pain of This sorrow day
My life is all messed up I can’t stand up any longer And when I look the bright sun I just feel the numbness Of all the sorrow days Take me away… (Do you wanna disappear?)
No, no, no, Just take me away
NO, I just want to (get over) This sorrow day
Today when I woke up… I tried to smile And I noticed I couldn’t to it anymore… Today when I woke up
The sky told me Something was wrong I looked to my hands And understood It was only more One sorrow day
This is a song by me and my old garage rock band Sorrow day
Today when I woke up The sky told me Something was wrong I looked to my hands And understood It was only more One sorrow day
(Do you wanna disappear?)
No, no, no I can’t stand it anymore
(Do you wanna go?)
No, no, no I just don’t wanna feel Another sorrow day
I looked to the mirror And imagined me Getting through this But I can’t, I can’t I am not that strong To get over, get over
This sorrow day
Today when I woke up The sky told me Something was wrong I looked to my hands And understood It was only more One sorrow day
(Do you wanna disappear?)
No, no, no I want to forget the sorrow (Do you wanna go?)
No, no, no Just end with the pain of This sorrow day
My life is all messed up I can’t stand up any longer And when I look the bright sun I just feel the numbness Of all the sorrow days Take me away… (Do you wanna disappear?)
No, no, no, Just take me away
NO, I just want to (get over) This sorrow day
Today when I woke up… I tried to smile And I noticed I couldn’t to it anymore… Today when I woke up
The sky told me Something was wrong I looked to my hands And understood It was only more One sorrow day
Moving so much must be tough, I wouldn’t know. But you remind me of my friend Stacy. She has had to move countries, cities, and might be leaving to go back to India again. She’s just like you, very enclosed. But don’t take that badly, it just means shy kind of. She has told me alot about her past, and her parents really don’t like her. But that doesn’t stop her. She’s the best runner on my team, and she makes herself mad so she can do good all the time. She uses her past and her frustration to make something great out of herself. I think you should try that. Things will be okay, you always seem to make a friend and a difference in people’s lives no matter where you go.
I just wanted 2 say ur not alone. I no wat its like 2 move a lot. I went to 6 different high schools, cause i was n foster care. I just dont want u 2 make the same mistake i made. That is 2 give up completely on making friends. U will make it. If i did, anyone can.