If I could just disappear…
When I am getting used to this environment…when I am getting used to this school they just want to move…
my parents are trying to find someone to keep the cofee shop and move again to the city we used to live in before…
When I was getting used to high school there they moved to here, and now that I am getting used to this high school they want to move again… I know I know people in the other city…but being transferred again!?  It is not fair…
now that I was getting well with the class…now that there will be persons missing me…
I hate it!!
My 6years old sister is sick and her fever doesn’t go down…
What will I do?
I can’t talk to my boyfriend until thursday because he is busy with college… so these days I will be on my own… I’m feeling lonely right now…
My parents are always saying that now I have not reasons to be sad since I will be back to my hometown… but they don’t understand how bad is being transferred from school again… If I say this to them I know they will be angry and find someway to make me feel guilty…
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This is a song by me and my old garage rock band
Sorrow day

Today when I woke up
The sky told me
Something was wrong
I looked to my hands
And understood
It was only more
One sorrow day

(Do you wanna disappear?)

No, no, no
I can’t stand it anymore

(Do you wanna go?)

No, no, no
I just don’t wanna feel
Another sorrow day

I looked to the mirror
And imagined me
Getting through this
But I can’t, I can’t
I am not that strong
To get over, get over
This sorrow day

Today when I woke up
The sky told me
Something was wrong
I looked to my hands
And understood
It was only more
One sorrow day

(Do you wanna disappear?)

No, no, no
I want to forget the sorrow
(Do you wanna go?)

No, no, no
Just end with the pain of
This sorrow day

My life is all messed up
I can’t stand up any longer
And when I look the bright sun
I just feel the numbness
Of all the sorrow days
Take me away…
(Do you wanna disappear?)

No, no, no, Just take me away

NO, I just want to
(get over)
This sorrow day

Today when I woke up…
I tried to smile
And I noticed
I couldn’t to it anymore…
Today when I woke up

The sky told me
Something was wrong
I looked to my hands
And understood
It was only more
One sorrow day