i think i’m going absolutely out of my mind. i keep convincing myself that everyone is mad at me and that everyone hates me and that no one wants me around. and like, its so strong, i can feel it. and i physically feel sick thinking about it because it just kills me so bad. and sometimes i just wanna si so bad and i really wanna stop but i do it anyway. and it was bad today. i did it in school. i don’t know what to do anymore.
I felt the EXACT same way today. Like, I finally told one of my best friends, Rachael, and she was so supportive and kept showering me with love, which, in some odd way, made me feel…worse. So, I did it in school, too.
You’re not alone. We will beat this together.
<3 Kate
I understand you completely!!! You are not alone!! When I think that everyone else is mad at me it usually has to do with something that I am afraid of…fear!!! For me…it is way easier to injure when I think that no one cares and is mad at me than when they aren’t. It’s almost like I justify doing it to myself!! Do you see a therapist?? They can help you talk about what you are feeling instead of trying to numb it all the time. I still SI at times but it has become a bit less frequent since seeing my therapist!! If you ever want to chat please don’t hesitate to email me at ninelives9@live.com . If you believe in God…pray and ask for his guidance!! Take care of yourself!!!