i think i’m going absolutely out of my mind. i keep convincing myself that everyone is mad at me and that everyone hates me and that no one wants me around. and like, its so strong, i can feel it. and i physically feel sick thinking about it because it just kills me so bad. and sometimes i just wanna si so bad and i really wanna stop but i do it anyway. and it was bad today. i did it in school. i don’t know what to do anymore.