ive been si for 6 years and  havnt been on here for a while cos i havnt needed to but recently i relapsed it was nearly 2 years i have reached a really scary time in my life and si seemed the only way to deal with it ,although it didnt give me the release it used to im scared that i cant stop not because i need it but because thats what i am used to using as an emotional outlet has anyone else had the same  experience …….