I have been all over the map lately with my emotions!! It really sucks!!! Sometimes I wish I could stay in bed all day long so that I don’t have to think about anything…including self-injury!!! It feels like I am on a gigantic rollercoaster and I can never get off!!! Lately…there has been rarely a day that I don’t think about hurting myself in one way or the other!!! Today was Mothers day and I don’t talk to my mom…but for some stupid reason, I called her and it sent me spiralling outta control… I hate this…I just want to get better…I see a great therapist of whom I love to see and am very grateful for that. She has and has continued to help me a lot!!! I am just really really struggling right now!!! I know one thing though…God doesn’t fault me for my actions. I need help…..