today I did a draw of a girl that commited suicide… That girl represented me. Lately I have thought of this.
I posted the draw on one website because I usually post most of my draws there but I am thinking of deleting it… it is like…I did the draw to illustrate my desire, and I posted it so I could feel like it was more one draw than something more personal.but it is personal…it is what I wish right now.
I want to give up…
First I am depressed, than I start to feel numbness and then rage…and then I start to be depressed again. Yesterday night I fainted again…
I don’t want to fight anymore… I just want to stop thinking, stop feeling, stop everything…
what will I do? what I need to do?
gosh…I want to stop these tears so badly
You need to breathe. Don’t stay isolated. Talk to someone, as you are doing now. Your boyfriend? Friends? Teachers? Talk to them about how you are feeling. Because you’re important, and you CANNOT give up on yourself! You’re here for a reason, and you should try finding out what that reason is. There’s hope. You can get through this, I know you can. Just stay positive.
<3 always, rescue
Don’t give up, sweetie!! Just hang in there. I know how you feel, because I’ve thought about doing that, too. But I just couldn’t. I may not be living for myself, but I am living for those that love me. You just have to find something in this life to keep you going. It could be as simple as feeling the sun on your skin, or seeing a friend’s face.
Just hang in there.
<3 Kate <3
i know exactly how you feel…exactly…its so hard to make it sometimes..i almost killed myself last night. Please dont do it though, i know it sound so hypocrticial, but even if you feel numb like i do, still dont do it…you can make it, i can make it, just know you are not alone