okay so…i just started SIing a few months ago. my friend introduced me to it as if it were “cool”. i foolishly went along with it. so now its been a while and i only occasionally did it. sometimes i didnt exactly have a reason. but recently i got really really upset at my mom and did it. but this time was different! it was blind, and out of anger! i was scared later, i didnt know i had a side of me that uses SIing as an outlet for anger…it was scary. so now im afraid that next time i get mad i’ll do it again. and i dont want to! i thought about it earlier but i stopped and left the room and went outside so that i couldnt. help? advice?
You are doing awesome. You admitted you had a problem, and you know you want to stop. That’s the first step in healing yourself. And you did the wisest, best thing in leaving the place where the triggers went off. That’s the greatest mechanism there is, because then the impulse dies down. Keep doing what you’re doing, and if you have a religion, I suggest you follow it, because it will help you clear your head and you’ll always have something to turn to that way.
I’ll pray for you. best wishes.
<3, rescue
If you can…go see a therapist right away!!! You DO NOT want to continue on this path!!! Believe me…it is really hard to stop!!! You begin to think that it is your best friend and then things start getting worse and worse…you start to feel horrible about yourself, depression sets in and you want to do it as it is always on your mind..everyday!!! IT IS NOT YOUR FRIEND!!! It is you worst nightmare!!!! I believe in you!! You can do this and if you ever need a friend I am here!! Email me anytime at ninelives9@live.com . Take good care of yourself!!
I agree…seek therapy. Even if you tell your parents or whoever that it is for anger management, get it started. Its a vicious cycle, we can put it at rest and recover, but you are still farther ahead seeking help then trying to fight this demon on your own. Best of luck to you!!! And way to hold off on SIing again. Good job going outside and getting out of the situation!!