First off I wanted to say to everyone thank you for all the comments that you leave me. I really appreciate everyone of them. I know I don’t always comment back, but sometimes I just have to sit there and think about what I just read.

One thing that is really one my mind right now is.. How do I give advise to ppl when I don’t even follow the advise I’m giving. Yeah I can sit there and say “Instead of SIing go and read or go for a walk etc. But I don’t follow that advise, I still SI so what gives me the right to tell that to other ppl??

But anyways. I’m really starting to freak out right now. I only have 4 days of work left & like only 2 weeks left until I move. I’m still confused if I’m making the right choice or not, and I’m scared out of my mind. Really how do you know if your making that right choice or if it’s the worst thing that you ever did and then you regret that choice for the rest of your life? I’ve been a roller coaster of emotions lately and having a really hard time sorting everything, and it’s like that only thing I can turn to is SIing. I know I want to stop, but I just don’t want to stop right now. Isn’t the f’ed up or maybe i’m just f’ed up.. Not really sure..