Ok… so i’m new here and kinda nervous about posting this out in public.
i’ve been doing this for basically as long as i can remember, but the things i do are usually not very extreme. I do it when i’m so angry with myself i can’t think straight. It’s pretty much the same as eating when i’m hungry–it’s just natural. I hate myself all the time, so when i get mad enough, i act upon it.
I don’t want to talk to my friends about it, but don’t like seeing “professionals” either. because all they do is stare and nod and ask weird questions. Creeps me out.
You’ve come to the right place, welcome! We are all experiencing this, I myself am recovering. I have to remind you that you’re not alone, and we don’t judge you. Ask for help when and if you need it, don’t be scared to tell the truth. We can make it through all this, together.
<3, rescue
Thanks for responding & understanding. actually feel better just having read it. just circled today on a calendar to see how long i can go without doing this…(it probably won’t be long)
Try not to be negative, that’s a lesson you have to learn fast. Stay positive, and instead of dreading the days, count them with confidence. You can do it, you just have to push yourself and stay okay. You’ll do fine, I have faith in you.
lots of love, rescue
Don’t think of it that way!! Be positive about it!! I will have 30 days on the 10th. And this past weekend, I wanted to SI everyday…but I checked the blog and I posted and I kept busy and if I could be busy then I took a nap. Stay strong, you CAN do this…we all CAN!!! Especially together…the best way is together!!! And by starting here, you are already going in the right direction!!! Good for you!!! No one ever said recovery was easy…but it is soooo worth it…
Remember “Just For Today”!!!
Thanks so much for the encouragement & advice, Rescue & Jymes. I really appreciate it!
Jymes, congrats on your upcoming 30 days. That is awesome.