I don’t know what happened today. I was fine.. But then something in my mind got triggered all I could think about was SIing. I just started looking for anything at my desk to use as a tool. I know I have to fight the urge to. Tomorrow will be a week since the last time I SIed.. I was able to talk to my friend and she really help talk me down from it. Which is good, but I’m still trying to refocus my mind on something else. It’s just really hard. It just feels like when I take one step forward I take two steps back…..
So instead of those ‘two steps back’ take a bunch of baby steps forward. Creep out of that darkness, but do it slowly if you have to. There’s nothing wrong with that. Now, instead of looking for tools to use, look for tools you can toss. That’s what I did at first, and I know that there will never not be anything in the world I can’t use, but the feeling and the process of throwing away things I once used, it made me feel safe.
i know what you mean i did that a couple of days ago unfortunatly i didn’t have success in stopping myself but my advice is to occupy yourself with anything else talking to somebody going for a walk anything and stay away from sharp objects idk if this helps any but i hope so hopefully your stronger than me i’m not gonna say it’ll be easy trust me i know but all you can do is try