I don’t know what happened today. I was fine.. But then something in my mind got triggered all I could think about was SIing. I just started looking for anything at my desk to use as a tool. I know I have to fight the urge to. Tomorrow will be a week since the last time I SIed.. I was able to talk to my friend and she really help talk me down from it. Which is good, but I’m still trying to refocus my mind on something else. It’s just really hard. It just feels like when I take one step forward I take two steps back…..