I just did it. I harmed myself, and I felt I could breath. I feel so hollow and can never sleep, I’m anxious, can’t focus, I even forget I’m hungry at times.
That’s a shame. But it’s okay. You can move on from this and forgive yourself, and seek forgiveness from others. Because in reality, the cycle orf that is a vicious one…it can only harm you. Let yourself be helped, you are loved. See what comes of that.
I know how it is when you SI. It makes you feel better for a tiny bit, but then it makes you feel a million times more horrible after, like “what have I done?”
You can get through this. Just try really hard. Don’t look back at the past times you SI’ed, though. There’s nothing you can do to take it back, right?
i really understand that i do the same thing sometimes i feel like i have no feelings at all i just S.I. and all my thoughts slow down and i feel better but i feel realy empty inside like theres nothing there its like to make myself feel better i’m taking parts of my heart and throwing them away for a while and then they come back and haunt me lilke my flash backs and i never can sleep either i can’t even focus at school or on my friends its like living in a dream if you want you can email me hopefully we can help eachother brenna.nunnery@yahoo.com
Hi there. I can definitely relate. I have hard times sleeping and I do get anxious. Are you on any type of medications for this? I take one for depression and it really seems to help my anxiety issues. Now sleeping? Well, I get it when I can. Now, I know this sounds crazy, but it works for me sometimes among other methods- when you start to feel anxious (light headed, heart beating faster, feeling of passing out, needing to get out a situation ASAP, etc- been there done that), try eating some chocolate and then sipping chamomille tea. I know it sounds coo-coo, but someone else told me to try that and I did and it worked. Now, it does not work all the time, so I use other methods such as jamming out as loud as I can to Metallica, texting everyone I can think of just to talk (not about SI) or throw in my favorite movie- because it brings back funny memories when i saw it first. These are just a few. I still do SI, as I did very painfully almost a week ago, but I am recovering thru online counseling and this blog. I will not let it defeat me or define me- it is just an imperfection that I need to fix (everyone has an imperfection!) Now, go get some chocolate and let’s make some smores!!!!
That’s a shame. But it’s okay. You can move on from this and forgive yourself, and seek forgiveness from others. Because in reality, the cycle orf that is a vicious one…it can only harm you. Let yourself be helped, you are loved. See what comes of that.
I know how it is when you SI. It makes you feel better for a tiny bit, but then it makes you feel a million times more horrible after, like “what have I done?”
You can get through this. Just try really hard. Don’t look back at the past times you SI’ed, though. There’s nothing you can do to take it back, right?
i really understand that i do the same thing sometimes i feel like i have no feelings at all i just S.I. and all my thoughts slow down and i feel better but i feel realy empty inside like theres nothing there its like to make myself feel better i’m taking parts of my heart and throwing them away for a while and then they come back and haunt me lilke my flash backs and i never can sleep either i can’t even focus at school or on my friends its like living in a dream if you want you can email me hopefully we can help eachother
brenna.nunnery@yahoo.com
email if you want
thanks,bre
Hi there. I can definitely relate. I have hard times sleeping and I do get anxious. Are you on any type of medications for this? I take one for depression and it really seems to help my anxiety issues. Now sleeping? Well, I get it when I can. Now, I know this sounds crazy, but it works for me sometimes among other methods- when you start to feel anxious (light headed, heart beating faster, feeling of passing out, needing to get out a situation ASAP, etc- been there done that), try eating some chocolate and then sipping chamomille tea. I know it sounds coo-coo, but someone else told me to try that and I did and it worked. Now, it does not work all the time, so I use other methods such as jamming out as loud as I can to Metallica, texting everyone I can think of just to talk (not about SI) or throw in my favorite movie- because it brings back funny memories when i saw it first. These are just a few. I still do SI, as I did very painfully almost a week ago, but I am recovering thru online counseling and this blog. I will not let it defeat me or define me- it is just an imperfection that I need to fix (everyone has an imperfection!) Now, go get some chocolate and let’s make some smores!!!!
Email me if you need to talk. mlhaynes2001@yahoo.com
Michelle