everytime  i stop S.I. i end up doing something  just as bad or worse  or i just go right back to it they say writing should help but i write like crazy but i still want to S.I. its like i have to to get any relief otherwise i just drive myself insane i can’t even handle my own thoughts let alone the things that go on around me and all my friends just act like it should be so easy to stop its not ugh nobody understands it i hate being like this but everything is just to much i already have S.I.’ed today i dunno what to do i need something to make all of this stop