So, I woke up today not being able to keep my eyes open. Went to the eye doctor and here I have over done it with my contacts.
Anyways, no work today. So, I will be working one day this weekend. No biggie.
But my boyfriend was like “you miss a lot of work”. Not that its not true but in my defense last time I missed I had the flu and today I really couldn’t open my eyes. But, why does that make me want to SI? I feel stupid, but as soon as someone or something happens and I feel worthless I immediately want to! I don’t do it, but I want to. I think that no matter what the thought will always be there. I guess I have the ability to change the outcome of the thoughts.