okay well im new at this.. i mean the blogging. i used to hurt myself one way. but more recently began another form of injuring. i don’t know why. i mean i feel like i’ve been in pain for a long time. one of my friends started talking about it once when we were drinking and i showed her a tool i stole but had never had the nerve to use. I ended up injuring and it helped me and i just went straight to sleep and i didn’t have to think about the guy whod hurt me a million times or the girls who are mean to me.. the next time i did it it was like a couple days later on a really bad day and i just fell asleep for hours. after i SI i dont have to think or feel any pain.  something in it just feels right.