i havn’t really thought about it in a long time but it think that am loved, by a lot more ppl than i thought. I had the most aweful night last night! my best guy friend took advantage of how out going and nice i am and kept getting too close to me and i didn’t like it even if i told him to stop he wouldn’t, finally i got really mad and ignored him and stayed away from him the whole night until my frinds mom came to pick us up. then when i got home i cried and cried.. i wanted to SI but i didn’t want to have more scars… so therefore i went to my journal and wrote down all the reasons that i didn’t want to SI. i had a list or two or three hundred reasons and many of the reasons were people that loved me.. so i guess i am loved by more than i thought. and i am glad i made the desision not to SI