Well, I started SI when I was 14 for a while. I ended up telling my parents and was able to get out of it. I’m 16 now and this past little while I’ve been really down. I never really realized until now that depression is a real struggle for me. Unfortuneatly, I got into the SI and now I associate my depression with it and the two go hand in hand. I had a little episode a few days ago. I have a good friend that I’m confiding in and she’s helping me. I really do not want to do it again and have to lie to her. But at the same time I’m having a really hard time not doing it. I really do not want to fall into this trap again.
Forgive yourself. First thing. Forgive yourself for your mistakes, for lying to your friend. You have to let her help you, you have to make her to trust you around yourself as much as you trust her with your problems. Lying to others and telling them that everything’s okay is like lying to ourselves, and telling ourselves that doing what we’re doing is okay, when it’s totally not at all. We can’t continue down that path. BE HONEST. Allow yourself to be helped, you certainly deserve it. <3
Keep talking to your friend, I’ve found that they are always here for us. And if you feel the need to SI but don’t want to, try to do something else that can take its place like painting, journaling, listening to music, watch a movie… whatever works for you. I’ve been depressed before and know it can be a struggle and I can understand not wanting to fall back into the trap… like I said, depend on your friends, don’t hold it all in all the time, and try new things that can take the place of SI
dude, you’re awesome. keep on trying. “all things are possible with God” never give up or give in. be honest with people and let them help you. it pays off in the end even if it’s hard to begin with. you don’t necessarily have to tell everyone what’s going on in your life or even that friend but find someone you can talk to and that you can trust for sure and be honest. it’s so good to do that. again, don’t give up/give in. you’re amazing and can totally overcome this!