Hi this Holly and I was in the SAFE program back in June and July of 08. I don’t know if anyone that I was there with looks at the posts but I’m hoping they do and I hope staff looks at the blog especially Lauren. I now know that as hard asit was to go to SAFE it turned out to be the best thing I ever did do in part to the people I was there with and the staff but I also know that I had to do the work I was never willing to do before.I am very proud to say that I have not self injured since May of 2008.I won’t even try to tell you that it was easy because it definately was not.I have had to put alot of the skills I learned into action and have had to learn to use my support systems but it has definately been worth. So many things have happened since July some good some not so good and some great.When I was in Texas my mom was very sick and my daughter was pregnant.I had virtaly know relationship with my middle daughter had pretty much know chance of my youngest daughter ever living with me again.Well my mom got very sick and ended up living with me the one my family thought was worth nothing well its amazing what you can do when you believe in yourself and that you do have self worth.I ended up taking care of her until she passed away in January.Even though losing my mom was one of the worst things that ever happened to me I was so proud of myself because I was able to allow my mom to stay at home which was her one request.On to happier things, my daughter had a baby girl in October. She is the light of my life and my daughter has enough trust in me that she lets me keep her 3 days a week while she is out of town working. My middle daughter and I now talk everyday and she visits once a month and is moving back to the town I live in. The newest thing that has happened is that in febuary the courts and children services changed my 16 year olds goal to return home and she will be living with me by August 1st. None of this would have been possible if I had not made the choice to take the 26 hour bus trip to the SAFE program. I hope that if people see this that have either just been to safe or are going my story will let them know that all things are possible if you are willing to work for them and fight through the hard times.I really want to thank Lauren and I want her to know that I now know I have self worth and that the mistakes I have made in the past do not define who I am Thank you Lauren and all the staff at safe being there truly changed my life